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my GF of 10 years recently left me for her uncle who molested her from the ages of 10 - 17. in August she turned 32, I am 35 years old and I feel more confused about life now than anytime before.. its like I lost hope in mankind. can someone please talk me down from the ledge...???I'm lost fam | SuicideWatch |
Disabled, autistic, ugly, unemployed guy. What should I put on a bucket list before killing myself?Dumb answers like "live" will be ignored. Time limit is 3 months and I have 5k in GBP in the bank. | SuicideWatch |
Senpai, I... I... Usstan che dos
And good luck translating that! | teenagers |
idk where else to ask this question but what should us guys do to take better spicy pics? i know this is weird but if u have a better sub for me to put this pls lmk. anyway, i feel like guys get a lot of slander for taking horrible dick pics so i was wondering if the girls or the gays had any tips on how us guys can ta... | teenagers |
This week is probably my last week of my life.hey, I know y'all are gonna say that it's not worth it and that life has so many beautiful things.
But I can't do this anymore.
This isn't about others hating me, it's about me being a disappointment to everybody, I'm not worth anything and probably everything that my famil... | SuicideWatch |
im stuck being alive during the lowest point in my lifeI'm impatient. Due to my derealization, time often passes slower than normal for me. My mom was going to finally divorce my pedophile dad, but then she got cancer. Now I'm stuck living with a pedophilic manchild for god knows how long. This has caused me to feel an... | SuicideWatch |
Only friend refuses to see meA little backstory:
I'm a young guy, who has been suffering from depression from quite a few years. I am schizophrenic and have severe trust and confidence issues. I have been with a therapist for close to a year, and am on medication.
The friend in question is my ex-girlfriend, and curren... | depression |
I'm just exhausted at this pointI'm just so tired. I've attempted to take my life multiple times but in the end I fail and feel even worse for it. I tried last night too and I just... Fuck man I'm just tired. I want to get professional help but can't where I live. I know that if something doesn't change now I won't las... | SuicideWatch |
I'm sorry, but they/them pronouns are the dumbest thing ever created People get mad for calling them "it" and then say that they don't want to be called a he or a she. Like ok | teenagers |
F.R.I.E.N.D.SI've been backstabbed by my friends. I have 2 other friends that I am close with. Apparently, they got close to my friend who backstabbed me. They became close. Apparently, the 2 don't even greet me anymore. I think she brainwashed them cause, this is what my friend said (the one who relayed to me that the... | depression |
I don’t want to “keep fighting” to get better just let me dieI don’t want any more treatment and I don’t care if refusing treatment kills me. I wish it would | SuicideWatch |
I feel like I'm going crazyI'm 17, in school, a straight-A student. I have not shared with any adults about how I feel. I'm not diagnosed because I don't have the strength, or money to see a doctor. In school, I'm labeled the 'know-it-all'. I fucking hate it. I have no friends, no one to talk to. All because I'm a stra... | depression |
All the things I wish somebody told me when I was a teenager # 1) If you have a crush, DO NOT spam them with messages.
Play it cool, do your own thing and spend time off your phone. If they don't reply to you, don't follow it up with another message to try and get them to respond. They're either busy or not in the moo... | teenagers |
When I'm at my worst I try my best to isolate myself from everyone so I won't become a burden.It's best for everyone. I become sort of toxic when I'm feeling like shit. I either shut myself off and won't talk or I become an asshole. I better if I'm in the dark on my own. Nobody in my life can really help me nor are the... | depression |
Why are so many young Americans so anti-nationalism? It's really bizarre to see a country that was so patriotic become so anti itself. You guys live in the second best country on earth, why wouldn't you be appreciative of it? | teenagers |
Depressed and it makes senseMy depression comes and goes; sometimes it's almost unbearable and other times it's almost unnoticeable. The most overwhelming feeling is that there is absolutely no point in anything, that everything the world does, that I do, is completely trivial and useless. Other times I'll just feel a ... | depression |
"When you FEEL like...""When you FEEL like you have no friends!" "When you FEEL like you don't fit in anywhere!" "When you FEEL like nobody loves you!" "When you FEEL like you're worthless!" "When you FEEL like you have no future!"
It's like advice is always worded like this. It's never when you DO know something, onl... | depression |
I just wanted to let r/depression know...That this subreddit alone has made my first year on this site, by itself, worth creating a profile.
It feels good knowing that there ARE others out there like me who feel the same way I do. Some days are better than others, and some days are living nightmares, but it's nice to... | depression |
Would you date a trans I wouldnt | teenagers |
The best thing about ending your life is that you'll no longer be encumbered with the responsibilities and have them weigh you down.As it's the beginning of the month, I'm at my computer paying all my online bills, and I just see them all piling up, Student Loans, Electric, Internet, Gas, etc. And it's just too much fo... | SuicideWatch |
How do you keep going?I'm just so done with everything. I work a 9am to 6pm corporate desk job where I am literally nothing more than a number. We've been on mandatory overtime (5 extra hours a week) for about three weeks now, and the end of that isn't in sight yet. That may not seem bad, but I have a *ton* of trouble ... | depression |
I really don't want to live anymoreBut I don't want to have my kids live with the stigma of a parent who killed themselves. It would be so much better if I could have a heart attack or a car accident. Sure the sorrow will be there, but short term. No shame. And they would be better off. | SuicideWatch |
I'm having a really bad depressive episode right now, and I wrote this.**Depression is a cry for attention from someone who doesn't want to be noticed**
I don’t think the average person understands just how difficult it is for someone suffering from depression to talk about it. How deep the fears go. The fear that t... | depression |
I love you guys on this subreddit y'all made me feel less alone...and take care ...I will be gone foreverI love you all....y'all get the idea of how much life with depression sucks
Y'all understand what is it like to have a heavy soul while no one understood me and my issues
Sometimes family sucks
Sometimes everyone... | SuicideWatch |
My brother drinks orange juice after brushing teeth I think it's about time I disown him
Dude likes the taste of orange juice straight after brushing his teeth | teenagers |
I feel like an imposter, my achievements don't mean anything, at a maximum, my life will be ordinary.Lately, my achievements have felt somewhat empty - I feel like I have just done a really good job at convincing people I belong and deserve them. I got selected for a fully paid for trip for "young innovators" (18-25)- ... | depression |
AloneI'm really freaking down and there no single person in this work I can turn to anymore. I lost everyone made them turn away or got them to ignore me. I did always the same by turning away from some and just overpressure the rest.
I don't really want to talk about my problems anymore because there's no use in it. I... | depression |
My favourite quote I can’t save myself so I’ll give em hell
If you know where this came from put it in the comments and I’ll tell you if your right | teenagers |
I don't even know why (ignore this)So I'm sitting drunk ( I don't condone this by any means) and a brain wave. I had a friend over tonight, and I did the whole self pitty thing that I do. And after he left it hit me hard.
That **I'M** the problem. I'm the reason why nobody wants me around. Why people don't invite me t... | depression |
Do you have situational / locational depression?A change in location may be exactly what you need!
Myself, I think I used to. Here are two links on the topic: [The Examiner](http://www.examiner.com/urban-decay-in-national/the-area-with-the-highest-rate-of-depression-america-do-you-live-there) and [Business Insider](ht... | depression |
I don’t know who I am anymoreIt’s been a while since I’ve made a post here. As with many others I once thought I was getting much better, thinking I’d be back to normal in no time. That hasn’t happened, evidently.
I started going to therapy for the first time back in October. October and November was hell for me, he ... | SuicideWatch |
Can you please help this person? his reddit id is PM_me_your_buildsFrom this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/pcmasterrace/comments/4d7izd/giving_away_pc/ . This person wants to get rid of their pc, and then commit suicide. his account was created minutes ago, and i think that means he wants to do it quick. he has also p... | SuicideWatch |
I have started cutting again today.Hello everyone.
Today I broke a promise to the person who means the most to me. I promised my ex I wouldn't cut after we started dating and today I finally did. It's been about 6 months since I last had. I must say, I haven't felt this good since my ex and I split up. Definitely has ... | depression |
Day 233 of writing something positive that happened to me today Wrote my last test and now I dont have any for the next few weeks | teenagers |
i cant do this anymore i want it al to just stopI want to die i'm so devastated I'm feel helpless. Im confused and lonelyand scared. My life has fallen apart and the harder I try to fix things it just keeps getting worse. I can't stop crying and the panicy helplessness wont go away. I tried to call the prevention l... | SuicideWatch |
Frustrated with medications: need something other than ssri, snri, or welly.Over the past 5 years I've been working my way through the list of anti-depressents and haven't found anything sustainable. Yeah, I'll spend a year on Zoloft or Effexor, but will end up having to get off it because of side effects. I've been ... | depression |
People posting about “suicide prevention” on TwitterYet actively ignored me when I was ill and posted that I tried to kill myself and was about to again. Virtue signalling hypocritical fucks | SuicideWatch |
I have a tough choice to make could you help. So I just built a new pc and I have 2 options with my old one. I could either turn it into a minecraft server for 12 or give it to my little brother who dose not have a pc. All of my friends and people on me discord want me to make a minecraft server but my brother is beggi... | teenagers |
FrayedI did not want to post this, but I freaked myself out and know I need to talk about this before it manifests into something more extreme.
I have been having suicidal thoughts over the last month. Mostly minor things I could handle, but today it started feeling serious. I am generally a happy, fun-loving guy. ... | SuicideWatch |
-I would like to say thanks to Panderpmonium for sending me to this sub reddit
This is a repost of a post i put into depression originally but apparently this is a better suited subreddit so here i am
I would like to start this by saying i would to remain anonymous and just share something deep and personal. I'm not lo... | SuicideWatch |
Please write asking for any advice, rant about anything, whether it be in comments or PMs, I will do my best to help you in the best way possible! Hi, I'm just a guy that looves helping others, hoping to get a career sometime in the future that may help other people.
I always believe the good in people, and I almost ne... | teenagers |
Unable to have any kind of funHi. Like the title says. I used to like videogames, but I don't enjoy them anymore. That was the sole source of fun in my life.
I don't have any friends or hobbies. Never mind a girlfriend. My body feels languid and sick all the time, so I don't enjoy anything physical.
I find myself wit... | SuicideWatch |
I seriously fucking hate myself.I look in the mirror and become infuriated. Out of all the people in the world why am I given such a shitty face, body...everything? There is not a human being on planet earth with a lower sense of self confidence and self worth.
I fucking hate nearly everything about myself. | depression |
How quickly can someone become suicidalI want to know because I may underestimate how quickly someone can change. I'm right now quite worried on my friend , who hadn't been anywhere suicidal, become so as he puts very high expectations on his physics's results. He will obtain his results today and I don't know how he w... | SuicideWatch |
Dopamine Deficiency and DepressionThe most common way psychiatrists treat depression is through SSRIs to balance your Serotonin (chemical in your brain). However, what's less talked about is a Dopamine Deficiency. Instead of your Serotonin being low, your Dopamine is low. Symptoms of low Dopamine are:
Inability to main... | depression |
GuiltI feel such guilt for feeling this way. I've had suicidal thought my entire life but I always kept it a secret so my mom wouldn't get angry at me.
I'm so scared to tell someone what I'm feeling. I'm afraid they will leave me alone.
I want them all to know how I feel but I'm afraid they won't accept it, or they wil... | SuicideWatch |
Waiting to dieI haven’t found an effective way to kill myself and I’m afraid it won’t work and I’ll be handicapped or something so I’m just waiting. I wish the government didn’t regulate drugs, it makes suicide a lot more difficult than it should be There’s nothing that I enjoy in life. The only thing I’m good at is sc... | SuicideWatch |
I can't do this all over again-snip- | SuicideWatch |
I'm not really sure.Please excuse my writing I'm currently smashed, i need help everyday i only feel sadness or contempt. I haven't felt happiness for over three. But why am i deppressed i should be happy i have a house to sleep in hot water Internet a ps4 etc. Why am i without hope. | depression |
Today is what I told myself, but now I have second thoughts.This isn't about suicide, though I do have a lot of thoughts about suicide. Today was the day I told myself I was going to get help two weeks ago. Today just seemed like a good day. But now I find myself trying to talk myself out of it. I tell myself that I am... | depression |
Exams are making it worseMy GCSEs are in a month and I've done no revision. I try, but I genuinely can't find the motivation within me to put pen to paper. I'm so terrified of failing my exams but I've got no motivation to study for them, I'm really struggling to push out the thoughts that killing myself is the answer ... | SuicideWatch |
Why am I still not happy?Every day that passes, I try to surround myself by people that I know care about me but I'm still hurt. It's hard to go home now because I start thinking things that aren't true, but then start to accept them as fact. My heart was crushed, and I'm not sure if he even cares. Not one bit. I want ... | depression |
I’m at work trying to find reasons not to kill myself right nowMy staff is beginning to notice that something is wrong. I just need this crushing pressure to get off my chest. I can’t keep going like this | SuicideWatch |
So uh big news Im a dad at 17 ...
I got my gf pregnant and my newborn son Mark was born 2 days ago on 9-12-2020 so uh yeah thought I’d just get it out cuz that’s all that’s on my mind | teenagers |
How Much More Can I Take?Everyday I wake up in a different mood, sometimes hopeful, sometimes upset, but inevitably, when I step out of my shower I know in my heart that this day will be just like the one before.
I'm just going through the motions now. Things that excited me before don't anymore. No ambition. Just goi... | depression |
HELP MEI've got a problem, and there's really nowhere to ask for help with this kind of problem, so I'll post it here. It seems fitting enough anyway... I have these urges, and I want to fulfill them, but I know that what dies will stay dead, that there are consequences for my actions, and that I'm not thinking clearly... | SuicideWatch |
Anyone down for some small talk? I currently can't sleep and I miss people so I want to talk. | teenagers |
New national anthem idea: Whoo!
What's that pair that packs that punch?
The unique taste so creamy with a crunch?
PB&C is what I'm thinking of
And it only can be found in my Reese's Puffs
Peanut butter, chocolate, great when separate
But when they combine they make the morning time epic
(morning time epic, morning ... | teenagers |
There isn't a single live chat available to over 25s in the UK after midnightI've looked and basically unless you're under 25 or part of the LGBTQ community, the only live chat for people with suicidal thoughts in the UK closes at midnight. I've found that response times aren't very good on 7 Cups of Tea plus they don'... | SuicideWatch |
Idc if i reposted I thought it was funny so i post it, i don’t expect it to get 1.5k, some ppl saw it and prob laughed, its a meme a joke ppl repeat jokes weather they mean too or not. | teenagers |
What Should I Donate my Money to Before I Kill Myself?I haven't decided when or if I'll go through with it. But I'd like to make a Will here soon that says my money will go towards X charity when I die.
I'd like something mental health related. Maybe even just something targeting the stigma around mental health. I've ... | SuicideWatch |
Don't really know what to put as a titleI wrote [This](http://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/srf3r/writing_my_thoughts_out_any_comments_are/) post a year ago. Not much has changed. I haven't worked for much in my life besides two part time jobs, I owe my parents everything. I give myself headaches thinking about ... | depression |
Should I just ask her already? I like her so much but what if she says no and our friendship is ruined? | teenagers |
In a hospital waiting room by myself while the man that caused this sleeps comfy at homeOn Thursday at 4 am I caught my boyfriend cheating on me. He still hasn't apppologized, he has encouraged me to kill myself, bought fresh razor blades for me, beat me up, and told me he isn't sorry and that I'm a worthless fatass.... | SuicideWatch |
Pushing people away;People spend their whole lives looking for someone to love them, but when it happens to me, I have the overwhelming urge to run away. As soon as I feel myself slipping into that sweet intoxicating feeling of reciprocal love, I immediately shut down. It’s not rose-colored bliss for me. It’s a tangled... | SuicideWatch |
Does anyone else hate weekends and days offI have three days off and I don't know what to do I hate it. I've been lying in bed all day just listening to music but I'm bored and lonely and I'm burning up even with the AC and fan on. And it's not even hot here it's raining all day. And my mind is racing all day and I've ... | depression |
so its finally time i guess. i've felt it coming a while now. i hope this is legible and coherent.First of all, its all my fault and no one else. I just don't have any motivation left to improve, or even live this life. I'm sorry.
Mummy and Papa: You're the best parents anyone could ever ask for. I'm sorry to have bee... | SuicideWatch |
Why does rejection hurt more when you're depressed?I try to ignore it but it always comes back to haunt me and it becomes hard to function mentally. | depression |
Anyone else like feeling depressed and enjoy the suffering of others?Maybe this isn't the right thing to post in this subreddit but I really enjoy watching movies and listening to music that's really depressing. It makes me feel a lot better.
Also, others have expressed concern that I generally enjoy the misfortune o... | depression |
How do/did you get RID of friends?Ignoring them, deleting them from contacts and all that crap works; most people got the message and moved on. For the rest, it'll take time.
I was hoping someone knows a quicker way, without drawing too much attention to myself. | depression |
Thank your teachers!! Not only do they deserve the thanks, but it’ll make them happy af. Trust me, everyone in my class turned on our cameras during biology to thank our teacher, and it made his day. Even if it’s a teacher you don’t really like, they’re trying their best in this virtual environment, and everyone should... | teenagers |
Why starstruck Why is everyone getting starstruck lmao | teenagers |
Rage turns into suicidal ideationFor a long time now I've noticed any time I get very angry, I want to kill myself. Yesterday was a good example of that. I was speaking with a recovery coach of mine. We have a great relationship, and part of his job is to challenge me on things. I made a decision on something and he ke... | SuicideWatch |
Autistic person at the end of his ropeI'm just so tired. I take care of my mom the best I can, but I just have no way to go through my processes like I used to. I also have no one to hang out with other than a friend once a month, as I have to travel a city over to hang out for a night to get a break.
I want to go b... | depression |
I dont know anymore.I am a second year student in University. I used to think I was going to be successful, get a job in capital markets, be wealthy, be popular, travel the world. Now I'm a mediocre son, on the verge of losing my scholarship, have 0 friends to support me and just rot on the computer watching porn and s... | SuicideWatch |
Meds v. "Talk therapy" (x-post from getting_over_it)Quick and (not so) dirty back story: Been depressed since I was 9-ish, currently 24, and started seeing a psychologist a few months ago. Haven't seen a marked difference in the intensity/duration of my depressive episodes. Today my doc asked what I think about meds, I... | depression |
40000 people online rn And nobody feels like posting smh | teenagers |
I'm feeling like I can't change anything. I'm scared.I'm going to be 25 next week. Starting a career seems impossible because I don't have experience, I'm not good enough at anything, and I don't have the energy/a little apathetic to learning new things. Even if I wasn't apathetic and I did learn a bunch of new progr... | depression |
Why am I depressed?I've been feeling depressed since the age of 15 (I'm 21 now) despite never having major problems socially and economically. No matter what I do to lift my spirit there are times when something inside of me just switches and I go back to being a depressed, self-indulgent asshole with no grip on realit... | depression |
Journal IIJournal II
5-26-14
I decided to try and write a list of my strengths and weaknesses.Here it is.
Strengths:
Weaknesses: Unattractive, unintellegent, forget stuff too quicklyl, can't grasp concepts that seem simple enough,
awkward, financial drain on my parents and anyone else, waste of time to talk too, ... | depression |
Over it.I've posted a lot on here for the past month. I deleted a lot of my old posts though. I'm 18, female and in college.
I'm failing at life already. I have no money, parents have no money, no way to continue my education, no skills to get a job, huge student loans, and severe depression and anxiety. Recently, upo... | SuicideWatch |
Do curses really serve a purpose anymore? I mean, people just kinda throw them around. I personally dont really curse but it's pretty common in my experience. | teenagers |
Introverted. Lost hope in making real friends. I’m going to end up milking myself.I’ve nevrr been good at making friends. It’s a three year process for me with lots of anxiety. Then it usually turns out that they are toxic and I have to leave. I just had to cut out the last two people in my life. My own sister and my b... | SuicideWatch |
Every fucking time I close my eyes.I can't sleep anymore, when ever I close my eyes my mind starts to get loud, I talk to myself in my head all the time but it's when I close my eyes that it gets worse, "The you from 5 seconds ago no longer exists, you never did exist, nothing exists, everyone is dead, not like anyone ... | depression |
I think this is my last post. Giving up, I apologize to anyone who I've disappointed.I have tried everything. Even learning a new profession. Turns out I'm a terrible learner and a shitty coder, just like I'm a shitty person.
Thank God I still have a job as a pharmacy assistant. This makes it easier... All it takes is ... | SuicideWatch |
Changing my lifeSo after 4 years me and my fiance broke up. We won't be getting back together. My entire world has been flipped upside down and I'm crushed. Absolutely heartbroken. I drink most weekends and have been drinking a lot more heavier lately and going off the rails a bit. She still lives with me at the moment... | depression |
Sadness of having no true friendsSo ever since I was in junior high, I was always bullied and looked down upon by everyone in my grade. I'd only ever be name called and had no actual friends that I could call friends. My friend group, including the super popular jocks at my junior high were all nerds. I was really dumb... | depression |
I made a video regarding whether reviews are really helpful or not This video explains if you should either listen to reviews or not, and gives the right idea on what to do when given the desire to buy a game. There are some other jokes, and many inclusions of the Horny Man himself.
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H... | teenagers |
Yall imma be cancelled 😔 I found a video of me in 6th grade saying nigahiga but pronouncing niga *that* way | teenagers |
Online school is possible the dumbest thing there is. Half of my schools teachers don’t know how to handle it. My AP World History teacher told us about a test one day in class, and never mentioned it again. She never put out an announcement or anything, she told us about it Once. And since the test had then left my mi... | teenagers |
I have a challenge for you horny teens. Decode this. SWYgeW91IGRlY29kZSB0aGlzIHRoZW4gc2VuZCB0aGUgd29yZHMgIkZhdCBDb2NrIiBhbmQgSSB3aWxsIHNlbmQgeW91IHRoZSBjb2RlIHRvIHNvbWUgbWluZCBjb250cm9sIGhlbnRhaSBJJ20gcmVhZGluZy4= | teenagers |
I literally saw this so many times oh my fucking god Cishet writer: POV, everyone is assigned a certain color at birth. I was assigned red but wanted to be blue 😔😭✨
Trans people:
Non-Binary people:
People who literally are anything but cis: | teenagers |
God sure has a twisted sense of humorAfter being raped when I was a child I begged and I pleaded with god to just fucking kill me for 20 fucking years and now that I’ve finally stopped asking now that I’ve found something to live for he decides to start listening. I’ve found a huge lump in my groin this morning and all... | SuicideWatch |
The gears aren't moving so well today....For some reason, it hit me today. My lack of passion, lack of friends, and the reminder of my ex girlfriend finally got me. It has a grip on me every single day. This feeling in my stomach constantly makes me feel sick. All these distractions aren't helping and coping with being... | depression |
I have HSV1. I really contemplating ending my life tonight.I did everything right. I was in a long term, monogamous relationship. We both got tested before having sex. Except they don’t test for HSV, and my ex didn’t tell me he got cold sores. I ended up contracting HSV1 genitally after a year of being together. He bro... | SuicideWatch |
I cycle up and down. Anyone else?Almost daily, my feelings go from suicidal to happy. I am getting help which does not cure my illness. On happy times, I feel OK about working the next 60 years. I live in a shelter.
In sad times, I plan suicide with intent.
It has been years like this. Anyone else? | SuicideWatch |
This is my b-day. i dont know if you guys care but this is my last birth day as a teenager. i wish i found this community before. but anyway since half of the community is not teenager, I guess I could hang around a little more:) | teenagers |
I'm going to finish my bookI was going to make an alt, but I didn't.
I decided about an hour ago that I was going to kill myself. Before that, my plan was to buy a car with a school refund and live in it until I could get a job. Instead I think I'll save the money for my mom. I don't have life insurance so maybe it'l... | depression |
Rough day todayI've been doing really well recently. But that wasn't today.
I'm coming to the end of this academic term, counting down the days living with my housemate. Living in this town. All of my coursemates have graduated almost a year ago and have moved away. All of my friends from dorms have also moved away an... | depression |
what classic video can you never forget? for me its either door stuck or streets 1:12 both classic videos | teenagers |
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